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[callmenines]

Well...he asked me if I'm programmed like 2B.

I told him all YoRHa units are programmed to feel affection toward humans and feel the desire to protect them. That to us, you're Gods. After saying as much, he said that nothing I feel towards humanity is real and is only a result of my programming. I told him it's more complicated than that, and so he asked me to explain.

I tried asking him if he believed in God, so I could explain it the way you did to me. He said he didn't, so I decided the next thing that would be comparative to loving god would be to loving one's parents, since they created you.

But I guess that was a mistake. A big one. He told me to take my programmed emotions and responses and to go fuck myself.

[pontificus]

I'm sorry his reaction was so volatile.

You are right. Love is a very complex thing. His own proximity to it or even distance can sway how reactive he is to the concept. If he has never known love before, if it has been cruel to him, it might be harder to see it the way I have.

For me it is different. Back home I have been wed, but my husband showed no love, and now I am made to wed again. My own betrothed does not wish to touch me. That you would love me just as I am is more than I could ever ask for. I need not ask you for anything, and you ask nothing of me in return.

But we are all not the same. He probably wants to be loved, to be chosen, to know that even amongst all the humans there are, that he is the one the moon itself shows herself as Selene did for Endymion.

[callmenines]

Don't we all want that? To be special?

Only special in my case has never been a good thing.

_{[It's just ended in his termination, time and time again...over and over...]}

I want to fix it but I don't know how. I always seem to screw up.

[pontificus]

If you tried to explain it the way I had explained it to you, perhaps I should try talking to them?

And no one is perfect. To err is human.

[callmenines]

I can't use that excuse, unfortunately. I'm not human.

If you wish you may. His name is Ezio Auditore da Firenze.

[pontificus]

You are still not without fault.

Ezio?! You know Ezio. We are both from the same place, though I have not had the pleasure of meeting him until arriving here. I will talk to him. He is close to me, too.

[callmenines]

Oh no, I'm nowhere near perfect. I might as well be defective at this point.

_{[Can you tell this place is getting to him? It's getting to him.]}

Only if it won't cause trouble for you. I don't want that. I really, really don't want that.

[pontificus]

We are all broken in some form. You are not alone.

It is no trouble. We should have spoke longer on the topic of love. If it has caused Ezio some distress, I wish to ease it for the both of you.

[callmenines]

I think I've been broken from the start.

_[Yiiikes...]

Thank you for listening to me. You didn't have to, but you did. I don't deserve it.

[pontificus]

Then we will be broken together.

Please do not think such things. You have been just as kind to me, and I had done very little before this. If I can help you and Ezio, then I am glad to do so.

[callmenines]

Unfortunately I don't know how to fix humans or I'd attempt to fix you.

I just don't want to be in trouble again. I'm always finding myself in trouble because of my mouth or otherwise.

[pontificus]

Sometimes it is just the offer that matters.

It is okay. We will try and resolve this. It may take time, but matters of the heart are always delicate. And in this place? It is even harder.

[callmenines]

I wish I could offer more.

_{[So much more. Even though he's been here for almost two months now, it feels as if he hasn't offered any one anything of true value or merit.]}

Thank you.

[pontificus]

That is all I need.

Will you be okay?

[callmenines]

I'll be okay.

Thank you for being kind to me.

[pontificus]

You needn't thank me for that.

[callmenines]

I feel I should.

[pontificus]

I just want you to be happy.

[callmenines]

That's incredibly sweet of you.